It's due to nights like tonight that writing is such an important tool for me. As I sit on my bed, still fully clothed at 00:53, I have no intention of going to bed and falling asleep. There's too much on my mind. Too much weighing me down that I just don't want to...
These past six months have been undoubtedly difficult for everyone, we are facing unprecedented times after all. And I honestly feel that during this time I have been somewhat neglected. I've felt forgotten and invisible. To put these feelings into context, here's a...
I'm currently working on rebranding and updating my site. As part of this process, I decided to finally categorise all the blogs currently on here. Of course, some of them are over a year old, so I read over them to establish just which category/ies they best fit...
As of 23:02 tonight I will have officially been on this planet for 25 years! Becoming a quarter of a century old intimidates me, I’m overwhelmed and terrified and probably for the first time in my life I don’t really want to age up…
I've now had my VNS implant for over nine months, that's the same amount of time that it takes for a baby to grow in its mother's womb. And as much I'd love to say VNS has created a whole new life for me, it's not quite that simple. The five months since I last wrote...
Last Wednesday morning, whilst staying at my grandma's, I had two seizures. And although they left me feeling sore and frustrated for the first time in a long while they didn't leave me feeling hopeless. You see, four weeks ago I had my first follow up appointment...
Right now one of my main triggers for social anxiety is having to constantly answer the question, ‘so what are you doing at the moment?’. My automatic response is normally ‘not much’ but it seems this is insufficient. Although most people ask the question because they’re either genuinely interested or just want to start a conversation, for me it is painful to answer…
At the start of this Summer I was the lowest I’ve been in four years, yet as Autumn makes itself fully known I’m in the best mental state I’ve been in probably for a decade. I don’t know what it is that has triggered this drastic change in the way I think and consequently feel, perhaps 24 is just a magic age, but for the first time in forever I am reasonably ok with being me.
Over the past week or so I've written a lot of blogs in my head but none have been typed out or posted. They've all been too depressing or angry, too filled with uncontrolled emotions to format into an actual piece. You see, describing the last few months as bumpy is...