My Physical and Verbal Bullying Story

I first starting writing this blog in October but I had to stop as typing it out was getting too much for me. However, it seemed apt to finally complete it as today is the start of Anti-Bullying Week. You see, I was bullied both physical and verbal bullying for over...

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A Late Night Ramble

It's due to nights like tonight that writing is such an important tool for me. As I sit on my bed, still fully clothed at 00:53, I have no intention of going to bed and falling asleep. There's too much on my mind. Too much weighing me down that I just don't want to...

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Neglect in the time of Corona

These past six months have been undoubtedly difficult for everyone, we are facing unprecedented times after all. And I honestly feel that during this time I have been somewhat neglected. I've felt forgotten and invisible. To put these feelings into context, here's a...

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Just some small thoughts

I'm currently working on rebranding and updating my site. As part of this process, I decided to finally categorise all the blogs currently on here. Of course, some of them are over a year old, so I read over them to establish just which category/ies they best fit...

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Autism Awareness via Letters and Notes

Going through some old files recently I found some letters and notes written by child Susanna. Letters and notes that are distressing and need to be seen as they highlight the full effect that Autism has on a child. Today is World Autism Awareness Day, so I figured...

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Why I Love RPGs!

At the start of this year the one commitment I made was becoming a member of my local gaming club. Every Thursday night I spend four hours playing role-playing games (RPGs) with a bunch of awesome people (the club also hosts boardgames). Campaigns are run in four week...

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VNS Update (20 Weeks)

Last Wednesday morning, whilst staying at my grandma's, I had two seizures. And although they left me feeling sore and frustrated for the first time in a long while they didn't leave me feeling hopeless. You see, four weeks ago I had my first follow up appointment...

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Just Stop Asking

Right now one of my main triggers for social anxiety is having to constantly answer the question, ‘so what are you doing at the moment?’. My automatic response is normally ‘not much’ but it seems this is insufficient. Although most people ask the question because they’re either genuinely interested or just want to start a conversation, for me it is painful to answer…

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The Magic of Relativity

At the start of this Summer I was the lowest I’ve been in four years, yet as Autumn makes itself fully known I’m in the best mental state I’ve been in probably for a decade. I don’t know what it is that has triggered this drastic change in the way I think and consequently feel, perhaps 24 is just a magic age, but for the first time in forever I am reasonably ok with being me.

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