I first starting writing this blog in October but I had to stop as typing it out was getting too much for me. However, it seemed apt to finally complete it as today is the start of Anti-Bullying Week. You see, I was bullied both physical and verbal bullying for over...
VNS Update (1 YEAR!!!!!)
It’s hard to believe it’s been an entire year since this tiny 4.5x3cm device was surgically implanted into my chest. And it’s even more mind-blowing to think about everything it has done. The more time that passes, the more that I think about it, the more amazed I become. Every day I feel increasingly grateful for my VNS and, even for me, it’s hard to put it into words…
A Late Night Ramble
It's due to nights like tonight that writing is such an important tool for me. As I sit on my bed, still fully clothed at 00:53, I have no intention of going to bed and falling asleep. There's too much on my mind. Too much weighing me down that I just don't want to...
Neglect in the time of Corona
These past six months have been undoubtedly difficult for everyone, we are facing unprecedented times after all. And I honestly feel that during this time I have been somewhat neglected. I've felt forgotten and invisible. To put these feelings into context, here's a...
Just some small thoughts
I'm currently working on rebranding and updating my site. As part of this process, I decided to finally categorise all the blogs currently on here. Of course, some of them are over a year old, so I read over them to establish just which category/ies they best fit...
VNS (and general epilepsy) Update (35 Weeks)
I've now had my VNS implant for over nine months, that's the same amount of time that it takes for a baby to grow in its mother's womb. And as much I'd love to say VNS has created a whole new life for me, it's not quite that simple. The five months since I last wrote...
VNS Update (20 Weeks)
Last Wednesday morning, whilst staying at my grandma's, I had two seizures. And although they left me feeling sore and frustrated for the first time in a long while they didn't leave me feeling hopeless. You see, four weeks ago I had my first follow up appointment...
Just Stop Asking
Right now one of my main triggers for social anxiety is having to constantly answer the question, ‘so what are you doing at the moment?’. My automatic response is normally ‘not much’ but it seems this is insufficient. Although most people ask the question because they’re either genuinely interested or just want to start a conversation, for me it is painful to answer…
VNS Improvements (10 Weeks)
Yesterday marked 10 weeks since my Vagus Nerve Stimulation (VNS) Device was first switched on. Although the implantation surgery and the few weeks that followed it were very difficult (read more here) the difference I've noticed in just 70 days makes it all worth it....