Unprecedented

As society pauses I take a deep breath, Look around me and accept I am blessed, Isolated but by no means trapped, Surrounded by family including my cat; I have a home that is cosy and safe, Unlike others who have far more to face. The feeling in the air is panic and strife, Yet …

Why I Love RPGs!

At the start of this year the one commitment I made was becoming a member of my local gaming club. Every Thursday night I spend four hours playing role-playing games (RPGs) with a bunch of awesome people (the club also hosts boardgames). Campaigns are run in four week blocks, giving everyone a chance to host …

VNS Update (20 Weeks)

Last Wednesday morning, whilst staying at my grandma’s, I had two seizures. And although they left me feeling sore and frustrated for the first time in a long while they didn’t leave me feeling hopeless. You see, four weeks ago I had my first follow up appointment with my Epilepsy Nurse since we switched on …

Just Stop Asking

Right now one of my main triggers for social anxiety is having to constantly answer the question, ‘so what are you doing at the moment?’. My automatic response is normally ‘not much’ but it seems this is insufficient. Although most people ask the question because they’re either genuinely interested or just want to start a conversation, for me it is painful to answer…

VNS Improvements (10 Weeks)

Yesterday marked 10 weeks since my Vagus Nerve Stimulation (VNS) Device was first switched on. Although the implantation surgery and the few weeks that followed it were very difficult (read more here) the difference I’ve noticed in just 70 days makes it all worth it. When my consultant first suggested VNS I was highly skeptical, …

My VNS Journey So Far…

Two weeks ago today I returned home after receiving my VNS Surgery. Describing these past 14 days as a rollercoaster would be an inadequate understatement. I only received the date five days before the operation took place. Very little information was given to me, meaning a large pile of anxiety and stress was left brewing …

The Magic of Relativity

At the start of this Summer I was the lowest I’ve been in four years, yet as Autumn makes itself fully known I’m in the best mental state I’ve been in probably for a decade. I don’t know what it is that has triggered this drastic change in the way I think and consequently feel, perhaps 24 is just a magic age, but for the first time in forever I am reasonably ok with being me.